Yajnyawakya held himself back for a long while, staring into her eyes to read her mind. She was calm but unsure of herself. In the slight tremor that passed across her body, he sensed that her fear had taken the shape and form of Gargi. She had now come to a point where she had to conquer those fears with knowledge, not by burying them as unreal. How did he fail to see that Gargi would be a perennial hurdle that would not let her go ahead on her path?
He said,"What is it that you want to know about Gargi?"
Maitreyi said,"I cannot think of Gargi apart from you, I must understand the Yajnyawalkya who was drawn to Gargi."
Yajnyawalkya realized why he was caught in the dichotomy of love and hatred when he was faced with Maitreyi. She would not let any interior of his mind and heart remain unexplored and unknown to her. He smiled wearily, and said, "Maitreyi, live in the present and let me also belong to the present."
Maitreyi listened more to the tone of his voice than to the words. His weariness touched her deeply. Light was breaking out on the distant hill outside. There was abundance of light waiting for her on the path ahead, with Yajnyawalkya beside her. Why was she lacerating her soul by knocking at the doors into a cavern in the past, when he was out of it, waiting to lead her to the infinite light beyond?
She extended her hand for him to hold. When he held it firmly, she said, "I pray, may you belong to your own self before the world can say, 'Yajnyawalkya belongs to all' "
He drew her close and kissed her on her eyelids to let he know that he was filling her eyes with infinite peace and understanding.
He said,"What is it that you want to know about Gargi?"
Maitreyi said,"I cannot think of Gargi apart from you, I must understand the Yajnyawalkya who was drawn to Gargi."
Yajnyawalkya realized why he was caught in the dichotomy of love and hatred when he was faced with Maitreyi. She would not let any interior of his mind and heart remain unexplored and unknown to her. He smiled wearily, and said, "Maitreyi, live in the present and let me also belong to the present."
Maitreyi listened more to the tone of his voice than to the words. His weariness touched her deeply. Light was breaking out on the distant hill outside. There was abundance of light waiting for her on the path ahead, with Yajnyawalkya beside her. Why was she lacerating her soul by knocking at the doors into a cavern in the past, when he was out of it, waiting to lead her to the infinite light beyond?
She extended her hand for him to hold. When he held it firmly, she said, "I pray, may you belong to your own self before the world can say, 'Yajnyawalkya belongs to all' "
He drew her close and kissed her on her eyelids to let he know that he was filling her eyes with infinite peace and understanding.
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